Day 10 - Double Digits!!!

Hooray! I made it to double digits and a third of the way through!

I definitely feel better today than yesterday. I had a better sleep and woke up with more energy. Jeff and I talked last night and decided that the only way for me to get through the remaining 20 days is to cut out the negativity and food bashing and focus on the positive.

I'm at a hard point in this journey because I haven't really started reaping any of the benefits yet but the cravings are at a maximum. It's tough to stay motivated for sure when you're still clinging to the old habits mentally but moving on physically.

The first positive thing today was that I woke up and felt actually a little hungry for proper food.

Breakfast was leftover breakfast sausage from the other day with sweet potatoes and spinach.



















My coffee was a bust AGAIN so I'm going without today and I'll see how I feel. No point forcing myself to have something I don't enjoy when it's not a necessity anyway!

I also need to up my water as I've gone from about 48oz a day on days 1 - 7 to about 24 over the past few days.

Lunch today is leftovers from last nights dinner - hamburger patties with sauteed snow peas with added raw veggies on the side.

On my way home it was like a switch flipped and I was hungry and cranky and unsure of my reasons for doing this. I started feeling like the benefits aren't showing up yet and the effort is high so why keep going?

Dinner was baked chicken wings with tater tots. After mulling over the ingredients I decided the convenience was worth the little bit of corn starch that was the only offending ingredient. I only ate about 8-10 of them and even dipped in the bit of ketchup (gasp....ketchup) it is fine.

I'm not pleased with my choice and I also didn't really enjoy them so it isn't something I'll likely choose again soon.

I'm just so tired. Tired of all the extra work that I'm doing to prepare and clean up and shop and plan. Tired of the veggies and the meat at breakfast and trying to find compliant things that I can at least pretend to enjoy. Boy it's a tough transition when you have to train a brain that has spent it's entire life being rewarded by food and thinking of food as a comfort or fun thing. I can see why you can't give in, not even a little.

I guess the bratty child wants to hang around a little more. Hopefully this passes quickly because in many ways it's much harder than the first few days.

Until tomorrow...

T